Recently I have had some things happen in my life that have put things into perspective for me... I have decided to begin to do the best I can to love life and living which at this point is a challenge for me but I have a plan! This is a list of things I am going to do in my life to make my little world a better place to live.
First: Learn to "totally and completely love myself even if I am not well now." That is the mission statement one of my doctors has had me intergrate into my life. I am going to remind myself of that fact on a regular basis and say it out loud at least three times a day.
Second: I am going to stop focusing on the negative and bring in the positive. I am a pesimist at heart, I see the bad in myself, and in others. From today on I am going to do my best to see th beauty in myself and those around me.
Third: I will do what I know is best for me reguardless of what my peers, community, or family say. I love all the people in my life with all my heart but too often I do what I think is best for everyone els rather than what is best for me. Right now I'm focused on healing and being a good person.
Fourth: I am going to begin to take care of myself. I am on medication both perscription and herbal to help me get where I need to be mentally, but I will begin to take care of my physical self immediately. I am doing this to not only have a better body for my career path but because I truly beleive that the way you take care of your own body is a reflection of how much you love yourself, and since that is another one of my goals I am going to love myself from the inside out.
Fifth: I will CALM DOWN! Its easier said than done to be rid of anxiety and depression but the more I keep it a deep dark secret the scarier it seems. I have problems like everyone else but I can't hide that I have them. Letting people know I have some mental problems is a great way for me to CALM DOWN. I will also consistantly remind myself that all decisions are not life and death decisions. I will take my mothers advice and learn to LIVE IN THE MOMENT.
I am not sharing these life changes I intend to make to brag about myself or to get attention in any way. By posting this so my family and friends can see I am committing myself to changing my life for good! I hope to make weekly or monthly updates on how good/bad I am doing with these goals :)