The Glass is Half FULL

ALRIGHT! I have come to the conclusion that I am far too negative for my own good and it must stop immediately! SO I have decided to write a list of the things I loved about my day today.

1. I got to TAP DANCE! How can you have a bad day when you start it with tap shoes on your feet? To answer my own question you can't.
2. I got to SING right after TAP CLASS! So two of my favorite things started off my day as they do every day of the week. There is no way I can let myself be negative about that.
3. I wore my favorite pair of blue shorts to my favorite dance class today! (they're actually womens pants from a suit in the womens department in the DI haha)
4. I got to run around like a crazy person and get graded for it in my acting class today. Its pretty bomb.
5. I talked to some old friends I haven't seen for a long time on FACEBOOK during book of mormon! Ok so thats probably a bad thing but I sure liked it!
6. I got to go sing church songs with some really fun people at a fireside and meet lots of new people!
7. When I came home from my fun day I got to eat canned ravioli and cheese while I watched my favorite TV show AMERICAN IDOL. plus I had the apartment to myself which is awesome!
8. After all that I got to go over to my good friend's house and relax and watch youtube videos and unwind from my (hard day).

So there you have it! I have it pretty good so I'm not letting myself focus on all the bad things anymore. Except I've been a pessimist my entire life so it might take me a while to get used to it. :)

its no big deal... its just my future

So this week is gonna be a stressful one! On saturday of this week I will be auditioning to be accepted into the Music Dance Theatre program at BYU. The program here is very competetive and hundreds of people will audition for around 20 spots! ahh! I will perform two monologues, two songs, and attend a dance call to audition and i'm FREAKING NERVOUS! It wouldn't be so big of a deal if this were just a show where if I don't get in life goes on and there is always another show. THIS audition will determine whether or not I will be allowed to continue to study music dance theatre at the Y. If I don't get in this year I can audition again in a year but that is a lot of time wasted where I could be getting my degree. HOWEVER I am a better performer than I have ever been in my entire life so I am as ready as I possibly can be for this audition. I have my songs and monologues picked and I've been dancing for hours every day all semester so I feel confident that I will be able to perform to the best of my abilities, the only concern is .... is my best enough? I guess we'll soon find out! Pray for me and wish me luck!!!!!

QUESTIONING

Ok so in my book of mormon class we talk a lot about questioning, which conviently enough has been on my mind a lot lately. So i've decided to post a few questioins I've had in reguards to religion in general. Now before i post them I want everyone to know that this is NOT me declaring that I'm an athiest because i'm SOOOO not! I have learned that being brave enough to question is a great way to strengthen my own personal religious beleifs. Ok so here are some questions I have.

Is there such thing as absolute truth? Is religion only TRUE because members CHOOSE to beleive in it? Or is it an absolute truth? Does religion only exist becuase humans need it to maintain personal sanity? Because it makes us feel better that our lives have meaning? Is it not true that one can convince themselves that they beleive something when they engulf themselves completely in it. When they pray to a god, read the word of their god, and surround themselves with people that have the same beleifs as them. So what makes one church MORE true than the other? If a muslum truly beleives what they say, how is their religion more valid or true than a Catholic?

Once again these are just questions that I'm looking for answers to. So PLEASE!!! if anyone has any insights, additional questions, thoughts, or answers to these questions PLEASE comment! I want to know how people feel about this.

RESOLUTION

I am very bad with keeping my new years resolutions. They pretty much never happen for me. (except thats a limiting belief so pretend I didn't say that) But this year I think it is more important that I keep my resolution than ever. This year I have decided to truly LIVE IN THE MOMENT. I know we hear about that a lot these days (its actually the title of my mom's blog :) But it really means a lot to me. I have found that the more I fear my future, and the more i regret my past, the more anxious and depressed I become. SO this year I will take my life one day at a time. This doesn't mean that I won't be prepared for my future and I will still work hard for my career.. BUT I want to be the kind of person that see's something exciting and beautiful in every single day. I think true happiness comes from peace of mind and the best way to achieve that peace is to live every day to the fullest.