I have always been taught that using you was the best policy. I have, for the past few months, made it a point to make you my constant companion but now i'm having doubts. I have found that sometimes the more honest I am the more I get hurt. I think about the way life was in years past when i didn't say what was on my mind, and kept what I was feeling inside and I start to miss the false happiness it brought me. Yes it feels good to use you, but I am much less vulnerable without you. But as much as I long to be rid of you and go back to how I was before, now that I have found you I can't ever let you go. Having you in my life has brought me more pain and embarrassment than I ever thought was possible. But what you have GIVEN me is more important. You have freed me from my fears. You have given me the ability to love myself. You have let me let go of my anxietys and get the help that I truly need. So HONESTY as much as I want to write you a hate letter for bringing me pain, I have nothing to say to you but thanks :)
2 comments:
so true. well written. we should talk soon, i wonder what brought this post on. love you :)
You amaze me with your honesty every day. I'm glad that you have seen that being open and honest, especially with those you love the most, is the path to true happiness and peace.
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