Anyone who is close to me will tell you that I am quite possibly the most flaky person to ever have walked the face of the earth. I pinky promise I am not that way because I hate my friends, or because i don't care about people. I tend to become a hermit when I get into a depressed state and sometimes that lasts for hours, days, minuets, I never really know. I have been in and out of that sort of state fairly severely for the past couple of weeks. And unfortuantely, because of that I have left a lot of friends alone when they needed me. So I have made a new goal for myself!
I am shifting my focus off of me. I've realized that the times I am most depressed are the times I sit and think about myself. And yes sometimes its healthy to have time for yourself and you can't ignore your own problems... but still, sometimes the best thing you can do for yourself is to forget yourself. I love the Christian idea that service is the most important thing you can do. I thnk that is very true. There is no better way to show love than to be there for someone. And really there is no better feeling in the world than to know that you have helped a friend in need. I absolutely love being that person people feel they can go to and just talk about whatever. And I love to give advice to people (cue most of my blog entries... ya).
So from here on out I'm not going to let myself think about... myself (ya i couldn't think of a cooler way to put that) for more than a few hours in a day. I have to be looking for opportunites to give and help because I really think its one of the only ways we can find peace.
So there's another post about how I'm changing my life. Maybe this is getting a little old... but I think what makes our lives so amazing is the idea that we are continually progressing. We have our entire lives to become better and better people every day. So... if you so choose... PROGRESS WITH ME!!