Every single person on this planet has at least one secret that could break your heart. If we could just remember that, there would be a lot more compassion and tolerance in the world

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Self Worth

So I'm still on the path to SELF WORTH. And tonight I realized how far I have to go. The story itself is too personal for the internet, and really isn't that cool anway, but all you need to know is I got a friendly reminder that I have no idea how to not let people affect me.
The one thing I have learned this past week is that I need to stop thinking "i don't need to be needed, I don't need to be loved" because EVERYONE feels that. Its normal. The most amazing feeling in the world is knowing that you are important to somebody. MY problem was I thought it had to be something bigger that it actually does. I have a HUGE support group that not only loves me but NEEDS me. I have friends that love me enough to distract me from my problems by making me dress up like a white trash hick and have a dance party at my freaking apartment! If thats not love I don't know what is! And I am lucky enough to be the peroson that some people confide their problems in. THAT my friends is the most beautiful way to feel needed.
So my conclusion is: When you think you are alone, chances are you are not. Just look at your facebook wall and see how many people WANT to communicate with you. Call a friend that really listens and understand that that is LOVE. And the next time someone texts or calls and tells you about their bad day, recognize that that is more than just love it is being needed. And even if it doesn't make you feel better immediately it is definately enough to keep you from swallowing a truckload of pills! hehe (I'm gonna start joking about it just laugh and pretend you're not uncomfrotable). :)


Linda said...

You also have a family that loves you and needs you. We have so much fun and laugh so hard when we are together. Please remember those times when you start to feel like you have no worth. You are a remarkable son of God, and you are of great worth to Him and to all of us. We love you!

Trevor Blair said...

So I am glad my trashiness could distract you from whatever needs be distracted from in your life. I dont really know you that well personally (which is ok cause I am not gonna be like TELL ME ALL YOUR SECRETS NOW CAUSE I MUST KNOW) cause I dont work that way. Anyways, you are a cool cat and I felt way comfortable to be totally stupid and look way too trashy for words at your apt. and I usually try to be all cool and fake at social events like that, but yeah thanks for making me feel comfortable around you I guess is what I am trying to say. You da best maaahn!(thats my rastafan voice...just so you know)