So I'm still on the path to SELF WORTH. And tonight I realized how far I have to go. The story itself is too personal for the internet, and really isn't that cool anway, but all you need to know is I got a friendly reminder that I have no idea how to not let people affect me.
The one thing I have learned this past week is that I need to stop thinking "i don't need to be needed, I don't need to be loved" because EVERYONE feels that. Its normal. The most amazing feeling in the world is knowing that you are important to somebody. MY problem was I thought it had to be something bigger that it actually does. I have a HUGE support group that not only loves me but NEEDS me. I have friends that love me enough to distract me from my problems by making me dress up like a white trash hick and have a dance party at my freaking apartment! If thats not love I don't know what is! And I am lucky enough to be the peroson that some people confide their problems in. THAT my friends is the most beautiful way to feel needed.
So my conclusion is: When you think you are alone, chances are you are not. Just look at your facebook wall and see how many people WANT to communicate with you. Call a friend that really listens and understand that that is LOVE. And the next time someone texts or calls and tells you about their bad day, recognize that that is more than just love it is being needed. And even if it doesn't make you feel better immediately it is definately enough to keep you from swallowing a truckload of pills! hehe (I'm gonna start joking about it just laugh and pretend you're not uncomfrotable). :)