An Education

I just wrapped up another year of college of a few weeks ago. Being a freshman AGAIN was not exactly thrilling but I love the people in Salt Lake especially my MTP family. I left BYU and moved to Salt Lake to be who I really am, And I must say, things went much differently than planned, HOWEVER I learned more than I thought I would. So I am going to do another one of my LIST blogs and talk about all the little things I've learned during my year.

- LIFE is worth living. I came very close to death in september of last year. And even though back then I didn't want to live anymore... I'm glad I'm still here.

-charcoal belongs in camp fires. NOT in my stomach.

-If my house isn't decorated really well... i don't feel at home.

- Someone can get whatever they want from me if they tell me i'm PRETTY.

- I care more about my look than I do about my personality... and I want to change that.

-People think I'm good looking on the east coast.

-I'm OBSESSED with post secret.

- I still want to be Loreli Gilmore when I grow up.

-I hate people to hear me pee so i turn on the sink everytime I use the bathroom.

-I don't know how to casually date.

- When I get really sad... i don't stop eating.

-Taco bell is my best friend/worst enemy.

-I REALLY hope love feels like a country song.

-I like country music.

-I have a weird complex about how people view me back in syracuse (the town i'm from) If I find out my old neighbors are "dissapointed" or "concerned" about me... even though i know its with love..... i get REALLY defensive and it ruins my week.

- Being LDS dosn't bring me happiness.

-I beleive in and LOVE God.

-I hate to be needed, but love needing people.

-In my darkest moments the only one who can save me is ME.

-I am bipolar.

-I love lamp light and candles.

- I am interested in stable committment from a partner.

-I'm a terrible flirt.

-My charm doesn't really read via text.... or blog for that matter.

-Watching your dreams fly out the window is even more painful than it sounds.

-I'm talented enough to receive $15,000 from a top 5 musical theatre school.

-I hold grudges.

-I complain about not getting the parts i want because I don't have the body I want. I complain about being single because I don't have the body i want.... but i'm still afraid of the gym.

-I LOVE dancing... but i might not ever be really good at it... and that kills me.

-i'm NOT good at throwing parties.

-I'm REALLY good at avoiding therapy and medication.

-I have emotional problems.... but forgetting about them and living life helps.

-People who make up problems to get attention piss me off.

-I am a master manipulator... gotta stop that.

-i get dizzy before I get really manic.

-i like graveyards

-I REALLY want someone to love me

-"i'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and god damnit people like me"

-I am a record breaking over reactor.

-If anything is going to hold me back from being a good dancer... its insomnia. Why are ballet classes always before 9 am????

-there's no place like home..

-people who can just fall asleep at a decent hour without a problem don't know how lucky they are.

-i'm pretty much always thinking about one of three things... belting.... my love life... or food.

-i'm never satisfied with two of the things listed above.

-karli rose lowry is the funniest person on the planet.

- I tear up when people tell me they think i would make a good father.

-I want to be a father.

-"I'm not interested in money, I just want to be wonderful"-Marilyn Monroe

-witihout darkness we can never understand the light.

-having hope is a choice

-Sometimes... when you can't see the light at the end of the tunnle.... forget about your problems and laugh for a while... and pretty soon you'll be living in the light.

-cafe on 1st, the top of i, ensign peak, my bedroom window, the graveyard in the avenues, marriot dance center, su casa, city creek park, gateway, the schmidt house, pab, and my very large comfortable bed are my favorite places in salt lake city.

-i make really long lists... congrats if you made it to the end without falling asleep!