Every single person on this planet has at least one secret that could break your heart. If we could just remember that, there would be a lot more compassion and tolerance in the world

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

What if it just sucks?

I have tried for three days to come up with a good post. I usually write three or four sentances and realize I have absolutely NOTHING to talk about. I mean a lot of things have happened emotionally for me this past week... but i haven't really found a lesson yet. I was getting really frustrated with myself for not finding a clever little moral to post on my blog... then i realized....

Sometimes life can just SUCK, and thats ok! Sometimes I get manic and make bad decisions, ignore people, say rude things, forget my therapy appointments, dance classes, and plans with friends. Sometimes I get depressed and ignore everything I have to get done. And someimes i get a little of both in me and wander around the avenues for hours like a zombie ;)  The beautiful thing about life is no matter how bad it sucks... IT STILL GOES ON. And when I make it through a hell week, I can be confident that it can only get better.  This week I have had the craziest ups and darkest lows at really strange times. I've been re-living the past and stressing about the future. I have layed around doing nothing for hours... then ran around salt lake alone like a chicken with its head cut off. But guess what? Shit happens. So what do I do? Give up? NO! I aplogize to the people i have ignored/said stupid things to,  accept the pain that I have felt, and embrace the fact that this week was hell and move past it.

I ended up stressing  myself out more than was nessisary trying to find this big deep answer to my weeks trials. So this week I have no advice to give except YOU'LL BE OK!   IT GETS BETTER!!  and YOU ARE BLESSED. Now I'm not very religious but there is a song that popped into my head that I sang when I went to church that applies to all human beings reguardless of religious affiliation... COUNT YOUR MANY BLESSINGS name them one by one, and see what god has done. There is always a possibility that life is gonna suck, and there's not always a huge life lesson to be learned from it, but there is ALWAYS goodness and hope to live for.


Kayleigh said...

you're very right. life sometimes does suck. but it sure makes you appreciate when it doesn't! :)

Suzie said...

Yes! Great post - life can suck sometimes but it goes on and you have figured that out!
I went to the NAMI conference today and will be posting about the talks I heard, one is very similar to this
Hang on your ride is not over yet!

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